Thursday, December 13, 2012

And your beautiful sky, the light you bring falls on me

So this is what my pre-chemo Thursday ritual looks like:

  • making sure all the laundry's done, so Jay has clean clothes come Sunday and so no-one has to fuss with it over the weekend
  • running the dishwasher so there's no shortage of dishes
  • getting out the sheet to cover the chemo chair over the weekend, to reduce Jay's contact with the velour of the chair and to keep his skin less irritated
  • taking Jay to the clinic to get his chest port accessed and his blood work done, so we know whether chemo will go on this weekend
  • doing grocery shopping for some basics to keep Jay fed over the weekend
This ritual is both soothing and anxious-making, the latter because I always fear I'm going to forget to do something important, that I'll overlook some critical detail.  That's my old tape about inadequacy playing there, and it gets ridiculously loud on these weekends.

1 comment:

  1. No way you are inadequate, even if your forget something. You are amazing. Jay is lucky to have you at his side through this, and he knows it. :)

    It is good to have rituals to ground yourself in the face of life's stressors. Then again, I'm slightly OCD, so I love rituals/routines. It's sad that you have to have one linked to a crappy situation.