Thursday, December 6, 2012

Because maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me

Funny that this should get posted today, as I'm thinking about my anniversary-of-sorts with Jay, and the changes in my life that brought me here to care for him on this part of his cancer journey: Cancer. Canceling. Postponing. Waiting. Growing., in which Amanda Palmer talks about canceling her 2013 tour to take care of her friend Anthony, who is undergoing cancer treatment.

So many of the things she talks about in her post resonate deeply with me: the deconstruction of a life, walking away from things you value highly, walking toward things that mean more, the fear of the unknown.

So much of it resonates so deeply with me that it moved me to tears at the dining room table, with Jay sitting in the recliner in the living room, and me trying desperately not to let him know I was crying.

So now there are more people to keep in my thoughts, and to hope for good outcomes for.

Fuck cancer.

1 comment:

  1. oh, wow did that make me cry. and yeah, fuck cancer. and yeah, you wouldn't be YOU if you weren't doing what you are doing, right now. [[hugs]]