Monday, August 4, 2014

Would I be out of line if I said I miss you

What I miss:

* I miss sitting in the dining room, with my computer on the dining table, working alongside Jay. Well, really behind him, since his desk was in front of me.

* I even miss seeing that goddamned head tattoo, which was my view for many a day.

* I miss him singing in the shower. (No picture here, unless you want a shot of our shower curtain.)

* I miss all the adventures we took

and all the ones we'll never get to take.

* I miss his silliness and his never-failing sense of humor.

* I miss his Thing with his tongue:

I just miss him, completely. This doesn't happen to be any special day, just a day when I can't stand how much I miss him, so I'm dragging you through some of my memories to try and ease that feeling.


  1. Thanks for sharing the memories. <3 the tongue thingie as adult and baby! *HUGS*

  2. First, to echo the first comment on here, thank you for sharing these memories and photos. I'm sending love and good thoughts your way for the slow process of grief turning to healing.

    Second, I'm sending a copy of my charity anthology "The Many Tortures of Anthony Cardno" to Bronwyn since it has a new story by Jay in it. I would like to send a copy to you as well. I will always be grateful and humbled that Jay took time out of what he knew was probably one of the last lucid productive writing periods he would have in order to write a new short story for my little book. "Cold Statues" is beautiful. Please let me know where I can send a copy for you.

    1. Thanks so much! You can send it to me at: Lisa Costello, PO Box 42601, Portland, OR 97242