Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Sadder still to watch it die, than never to have known it

Been gone a long time, haven't I?   Since my last post, I've attended JayWake, traveled to New Zealand (with accidental Australia thrown in for fun), caught and recovered from the NZ death cold, traveled to San Antonio for Worldcon, and tried to get my life back into some semblance of order.

I'm in a pretty grim place at the moment, as we inch up to Jay's next scan coming up next week. I've never felt the same kind of scan anxiety that Jay does, instead always saving my stress and fear for the oncology consult that comes after.

This time is different, and it's because there's been hope, and I fear something awful to lose it.

I will write more here shortly about all the things that have happened since I posted last, but not today. My heart is too tender for that.


  1. I love you. You are a mainstay of my own hope, and my battle against fear.

  2. Do not fold in. Reach out. Think of a tree in a hurricane. Those with the deepest roots weather storms the best. You and Jay both have wealth of love in each other and around you (both near and far).

  3. I'm listening. Hugs, dear Lisa.