I've been thinking a lot lately about my new life, all good thoughts. As I find a rhythm here, a solid routine, I'm realizing how empty my old life was.
This one has purpose, and meaning, and depth, and warmth, and well, life. A lot of the old noise in my head has cleared away and I'm left with more of who I truly am and what I'm truly capable of. I feel more present and more visible and more real than I can ever remember feeling.
Jay said something the other day that really got me thinking, about how I carry spoons for him, thus making day-to-day life easier for him. I found this interesting, since I have some spoon issues of my own. But I seem to be making it all work, balancing my needs and his needs and getting it all done, even if only eventually.
It's a good feeling to be useful, to have purpose, to finally get out of the awful noise in my head into real life. I'm glad to be here, for all the values of here.
(And for those of you who don't know about spoon theory, here's what that is.)
Love is a great purpose. You may want to incorporate it into your mantra as an anchor for the trying times ahead. But, you know that.
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