Another rough patch

I'm having a rough week here.

This past weekend was the fan memorial for Jay at Orycon. I didn't participate, other than bringing Jay's tux, chili pepper aloha shirt, and flame sneakers to the con for display at the memorial.

But it was triggery for me, even so. I shudder to think what state I'd be in now if I'd gone.

On top of that, Jay's bench has come back from the engraver, freshly inscribed with his name and dates and his epitaph.

That hit hard.

So I'm back in a rough sea of grief after a patch of relatively smooth sailing.

I know this will pass, and that all there is to do is to get out there and live life.

So off I go, once more.